Poison Heart: A Fan Remembers Dee Dee Ramone

by The Uncle Myke
from
Vanguard Party 2.1 (October 2002)

Intoxicated by the orchids abandoned in the garden
Demanding morphine curse my soul is burning
Stranded in the sweet wonderings
breathing the pale moon silver
Torn painted lips tasting the last drops of life

Sometimes I feel like screaming
Sometimes I feel I just can’t win
Sometimes I feelin’ my soul is as restless as the wind
Maybe I was born to die in Berlin

I sprinkled cocaine on the floor
when no one was watching
I closed my eyes and I let myself sleep
Creeps and dirty bastards,
demons waitin’ by my bed
There’s no choice or difference,
no one seems to notice

Sometimes I feel like screamin’
Sometimes I feel I just can’t win
Sometimes I feelin’ my soul is as restless as the wind
Maybe I was born to die in Berlin

(Third verse in German)

Sometimes I feel like screamin’
Sometimes I feel I just can’t win
Sometimes I feelin’ my soul is as restless as the wind
Maybe I was born to die in Berlin
Maybe I was born to die in Berlin

—DeeDee Ramone

Dee Dee Ramone, nee Douglas Colvin, was rock and roll in its purist form. His life was strikingly similar to the band that he, and three friends from Queens, created, The Ramones.

Dee Dee, like the Ramones, was never commercially successful or well received in any of his ventures. In retrospect it seems though that what made the Ramohnes music so great is what killed Dee Dee. Though it was his struggle with drugs that finally killed him, this struggle provided much of the substance for many of the Ramone’s best songs, such as “Now I Wanna Sniff Some Glue”, “Chinese Rocks”, “Love Kills”, and “Born to Die in Berlin.”

By far the Ramones most persistent songwriter, Dee Dee Ramone continued writing for the band even after his 1989 departure (and subsequent replacement by C.J.). In fact Dee Dee wrote songs for every Ramones album (except for their cover album Acid Eaters). Dee Dee’s passing is much more than just another idol lost, the world has heard it’s last true Ramones song. Sadly, the music world seems to need the Ramones now more than ever. The world would have been a better place had Fred Durst, Korn and Shakira got the Ramones message “Rock and Roll will never die, no matter how hard you try to kill it.”

Dee Dee did drugs, carried weapons, and sadly carried on a terrible tradition of living fast (or more accurately bad) and dying too young. He was not a good man by societies standards, however he was the very spirit that Rock carries, a veritable rock god. As stripped down as a Ramones song, it was read across the country.

“Punk Rocker Dee Dee Ramone, of the punk band the Ramones, was found dead in his home on June 5th 2002 of a suspected overdose. He was 50 years old.” The announcer then continues to do the sports feature with little to no emotion. There were no headlines no huge features, just a liner. It is too similar to the Ramones career fully equipped with no fanfare and no breaks. Two Ramones die in as many years and all the world cares about is Lefteye from TLC.

Rest in Peace Douglas Colvin, you will be sorely missed and thank you Dee Dee for the many years and songs you shared you will not soon be forgotten.

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